if the ending is the start, are you ready? on your marks

Everything comes to an end sooner or later. It just all goes by so quickly though, it's amazing how last October feels like it was only a month or two ago. I had my first exam today, I'm pretty sure I've passed it but i've got two more major ones in May which I've got to get my head down for. I'm 21 soon and it feels like I was only just 18 last year. I hate growing a year older, but I mean, this time I do feel more accomplished. Still lost, but definitely like I've got somewhere with something at least. And i'm also okay with not being in a relationship. It's cool though, I know I deserve much better. He just doesn't want to admit he only wants me to use me, and so that he's not alone. I feel stronger in general, though tired. I seem to have lost my iron tablets... that may be why. Only one more (revision) lecture tomorrow, a mock on Thursday and then it's officially the end of year one. I hate endings, but it's the start of something new. Summer's all about work and getting somewhere, I won't even have much time to think about me.. hopefully.

Also, been watching a lot of ER (from S6 onwards, Abby. Luby and Carby! haha.) And I love Blip Blip Bleep!